My Reflection

My reflection


Oh, how I hate that mirror
Please break it down
The nights I stand gazing,
I'm on my knees, begging you please
I don't want to look anymore...
No, I don't want to see

The
Ghost staring back at me  
Driving me to insanity
Stuck in between…
Glass and false reflections
Taking over me


Even I don't recognize myself
I don’t know the person staring at me
I know it’s me

CAN’T YOU SEE!
I’M IN TOO DEEP!

This feeling, itches….
Down inside flesh and bone

Why do you laugh, when I cry?
Why did I do the things you told me to?

You reflect back at me
I know what my eyes cannot see
I will never be free

My arm still burns  
 Cuts and bruises covered me
Just thinking of it
Gives me a rush

'Maybe two more pounds less
You will look and feel much better'

I know it is wrong
I try not to follow along
But I’m not always strong

I always need more ,
More to feel better

I can't necessarily blame you
When it is me...

I am you
And you are me

In the end
My thoughts
Will Be
The only thing
Killing me