AutophobiaAutophobia by stichesBodyBagTtags
sometimes being alone is
wishing you could numb yourself,
with just some
but, that will not work
everything eventually leaves
and so do people
for a short time or a long time
the pressure in your chest
fells like you are suffocating
why is it ?
people walk by, you say ''hi''
but they don't respond
''what the fuck ,am I invisible ?"
''WHY CANT YOU HEAR ME!''
''JUST LISTEN TO ME''
a never-ending cry for help...
when a car comes by your spirit lifts
when the car dissAPEARS
your lungs clench
and so these days go by
as you feel the sensation to climb walls
or rip open your chest just to get some air
but in the end you will still be alone
''why won't anybody hear me"
How did i get here ?How did i get here ? by stichesBodyBagTtags
''how did I get here ?''
I question that everyday
It was a normal day,
I was controlled by my mind
without any thought
I barely remember these events
most of it...
the rest I hear from the people who were present at that moment
so let me tell you
being alone at home didn't really make things easy.
I didn't think of that ,all I did was drink every pill I could find
I still don't know how I got here
"how ?" "why ?"
I know my mom rushed home,
at least she found me in time.
they knew an ambulance was going to take too long and I didn't have time,
she drove me to the hospital as fast as she could
I know she cried and begged me not to close my eyes
"don't worry mom ,I will fight" that's what I said to her
my eyes were shut ,but I could hear and feel everything
when they put me in a wheelchair
when they put me on the bed
it was cold ,I knew I must be in the ER
I could feel the tube being pushed down my throat
I could hear the nurse telling me to swallow instead I wanted to th
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